~~~ That's Me ~~~

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Used To............

I used to think that I cannot survive on my own, used to think that I need someone by my side every single day, used to think that I am scared of being alone, used to feel paranoid if I am left by myself, used to feel lonely and sad if there's no one there for me....

But today I realised that it's not really scary if you're alone.

And I realised that, hey, being alone makes me feel relaxed. No stress, no worries, though sometimes can feel rather bored, but I like the peace that surrounds me, makes me think straight.

And I realised that I actually like being alone. At least I won't have to keep worrying about something or someone that is not worth it.

And today I also realised that no matter what you do or how hard you put in effort in something, things don't always work out the way you want them to.

I'm tired of giving, and always giving, and worrying for YOU! Shit man, how old are you and how old am I? Why is it that I am always the one having to worry about YOUR problems and having to solve YOUR problems? Why won't you listen to one single thing that I say? Everything that I say, that I do, is all for your own good. Have I ever harmed you? Ever hurt you? NO! Cos the one who love you will NEVER HURT YOU!

ARGHZ!!! I'm so exhausted!

Whatever. Live your life for yourself, never for anybody else. Nobody is more worth it than you yourself. Learn to love yourself more than anyone else. That's my advice to all of you out there.

Back to happier things. I went to a book fair today and bought many many books!!! Awww, to have a hobby of reading is a real expensive hobby lar, cos even though the books are cheaper than normal, still, because of the quantity you buy, it can really add up to a lot of money lor.

Isshhh!!!!!! Can't seem to stop myself from spending lar! I wanna buy so many things lar.

I love this song:


说好的幸福呢

ThAt LaDy @ 3:34 PM