Had a great time hanging out with my ex-colleagues for the weekend at costa sands resort, pasir ris. I've never been so happy just simply hanging out with each other, playing funny games accompanied with hilarious laughter. Though we slept like 6 am to 11 am accompanied with snoring and squeezing each other off beds, still it was a memorable chalet outing for me. Though I hit my still-injured toenail while swimming, I'm just thankful that it was not painful, cos while it's still dangling there, it's not broken off, else there won't be any nail coverning the toe liao. *Shivers*
2008 is coming to an end, and if you ask me what's the best thing that's happened to me this year, I would say that it's simply having my friends and loved ones still standing by around me, and also I found back my long-lost-long-pinned-for love. The other best thing is I'm gonna leave already, in search of a better future!
What's the worst thing that's happened to me this 2008? The toenail freak accident I suppose. And also the empty feeling I've had for a whole year until just recently, when I finally am able to feel hope and cherished again.
I'm also so happy for a friend, who've found love once again despite being hurt terribly, and would like to say a few words to you my friend,
Isn't life so full of surprises? Just when you thought that everything is over, it actually isn't? The hurt may still be there, the courage may be reduced, but I would like to say to you, Don't give up hope, and don't give up the one who is good to you now, though you may be scared of getting hurt again, let's try and forget about the past, shall we? And try to love the present and embrace the future. Cos whatever will be, will be. Love now, and who knows, tomorrow will be even more beautiful than yesterday? Even though I may be far away, I'll still be here for you if you ever need me, ok?
The last big event for 2008 will be my departure, and I imagine lots of tears and sobbing and and....
Haiz.
It's not as though I'm going to another country la. I'll still be in Malaysia mah, though it's hours away from my mum. She's like really sad today, and keep asking why I must go so far? I just tell her it's really not that far, and it's still in Malaysia, and last time I everyday go in to Singapore why you don't feel so sad huh?
And she feels slightly better for a while, and I continue to tell her that my grandparents are there and I will always go to them if I face any problems, and she feels more assured.
Since she's off today, I would like to spend more time with her, and I'll try to avoid letting her send me off on the big day, like maybe leave house earlier before she comes back from work? Yep, I think that's a great idea. I seriously hate crying departure scenes, cos I'll cry if someone else cries. And I won't feel good leaving after seeing someone crying.
Well, I don't know what's for me at the other end of the road, but I'll just continue with my journey and when I reach the end, I'll know. And I know that I won't regret come what may.
I'm having a gut feeling that 2009 will be splendid for me. And my instincts are always right.
And if I ever find a chance, I promise I will blog okay?
ThAt LaDy @ 4:25 PM
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I'm Baacckk
Erm, actually I'm already back like one week plus ago lar, hehe, just that I'm quite busy to blog..
Hometown-wedding trip was real happy and fun lar, and and my hair on the big day was so chio lar!!! I'm serious lor, but I guess pics won't be up till after CNY cos they aren't with me!
Major decisions made during this trip, such as giving up somethings and believing in some things (again). I'm going back again next week, and probably won't be back anytime soon..
Haiz, isn't life so full of surprises? Just when you think that everything is over, it actually isn't, and when you think everything is full of hope, they are actually pointless..
Ok, I know I'm kinda contradicting here, but my close friends will know what I mean..
Oh, erm, speaking of close friends, so sorry to MeiFen for not being able to do our hair together for this year. Next year maybe we can? Maybe for alot of years later on every single year we will go do our hair together? That is sincerely what I hope for leh, so this year I am so sorry..
Back to happier things, tonight! Tonight I'm going for chalet! After work today (which is my last day), I'm gonna shoot off and hopefully reach pasir ris chalet by 12am, though it's gonna be a 3 day 2 night thingy, and today's the first day, still I wanna be there asap cos I miss my ex-colleagues soooo much!!! To name some, Wayne, Lester, Daniel, Panny and lots lots more (erhem) ! HAHAHAHAHA!!!
I'm looking forward to tonight! And my colleagues are gonna throw a farewell mini party for me today at work! I think I'm gonna puke from eating. OMG.
Recently the way I laugh is so uncontrollable and loud and scary. I mean, like REAL SCARY!! Even I myself also feel scared hearing my own laughing. Why? I dunno. My friends say that the way I laugh is like goat. Then when I laugh they all start laughing. And I know that they are not laughing at anything funny but laughing at me instead. But hey, at least I can make them happy right? And I know they are all so good to me.. So I guess it's a good thing.
And tonight there will be alot of photo-taking, so I need to look real chio! I'm chio anyway. *Giggles*
And then after I come back from chalet tomorrow, I need to fast fast get ready whatever I need to get ready, cos I'm LEAVVVVING!! Er ha er ha er hahahahaha!!!!!!!
Before I forget, I would like to thanks all of you for showing me the concern during my toenail accident, especially cartoon plasters to make me happy, that's like really sweet k, cos you know I hate plasters and specially went to buy cartoon plasters for me to make me wear them and to make me smile as well.. (Tearing now) Anyway, my toenail is growing again, though it's like kinda ugly now, but still, I'm thankful that I won't have to get it amputated..
I promise a smashing blog entry for a smashing you (that means allll of you) before I leave ok?!
Last but not least, a few words for YOU: 谢谢你为我做的一切， 我真的感受到你对我的心。 三年了， 我没有后悔过。 只想对你说，为了你， 我也放弃了很多。 希望往后的日子里，你我都会遵守承诺， 让彼此都过得很幸福。。。
ThAt LaDy @ 12:35 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Freak Accident
You know, this Watsons recently had some renovation, and before that, I have bought things there for years, until today, my shopping trip was always safe and sound. But alas! Today! Of all days! On my fucking off day can? How many times have I emphasised on the importance of my off day???!!! And somemore at 1 pm while I was just STARTING to enjoy my off day!
These new shelves, at Watsons, had these freaking metallic, steelic, whatever things to support them at the bottom, these 架子s have 脚s right? Somehow, I kicked into those things, or rather, those things just kicked into me (ok, I know this sounds stupid), and PAK!!!!
It's fucking painful ok!!! And the next thing I saw was my fourth toenail covered in blood!!!!!
Can you imagine not? The blood was just oozing out lor!
Then somehow, everyone around us was panicking and someone passed me a tissue and plaster.
I was shouting, "Is it ok to put plaster not? The nail how? Later when I take out plaster sure the nail will stick on to the plaster one mah! Then the nail will drop out itself or what? Then how I change the plaster if the nail is already broken? Why my nail already broke but never drop out?" All the while I was in frantic hysterical tears.
This is the thing, my nail just broke, covered in blood, but the nail is still there, obviously broken from the roots, though the roots of my nails is now left with like 1 cm, that means a tiny weeny part of my nail is there but 98% of my nail is broken from the other 2%. That means there are now two parts of my nail on that toenail. (Argh, this is getting tiring.)
The 98% of my nail did not drop off, but it's just sticking there in a very awkward manner, and I am thinking that if I pull it out, then there will not be anymore nail covering the skin of my nail. (*Shudders)
And I am fucking worried that it will get infected, I don't dare to put any cream or medicine on it cos now, basically it's rather numb, but I'm really scared that if I go see a doctor and the doctor puts medicine on it it will be fucking stinging painful lar! Or worse, the doctor pulls out the already broken nail!!! How how how???!!!!
Ok, stay calm. After the whole episode, staff of Watsons just did not bother to take a single look at me. And I still had to pay for the wet tissues (obviously already 90 % used for wiping my blood) and also the plasters. But I was in too much pain to complain against them la.
But still, please la, others tell me that, "Oh, you are not the first one who kena, alot of people kena already!"
EXCUSE ME???!!!!! Alot of people kena then there's no action being taken? At least wrap some cushion or cotton or whatever around those fucking metallic things mah!!!!! KNNBCCB!!!!!!!
But they were lucky la, since I was in so much pain I just hop myself out of the shop.
Now I'm still worried la. I've never had this kind of accident before and I seriously do not know how I should handle. Can I wet it? Is it going to be painful when I wet it? If I don't wash it, will it get infected? By dirt or whatever? Anyone got advice?
After having my meal, I was feeling a little better, not in so much pain, and I decided that I can walk slowly, cause I am not going home without shopping.
This pair of boots, which I was thinking about for days and nights I really liked it so much. But I think it was only a few weeks of considering la, that I decided, heck, since it is keeping me awake at night I shall just fucking buy it la!!! Right??!!!!
I went back to the same shop, nothing. No more.
I want to cry again. I just want to cry again! Those brown boots, chio boots with diamond-like sewn on beads and and......Herrr er er er errr.....(Sobbing now)
Fine, I won't wear any boots for my whole life then. (I always forget what I say in 3 seconds)
Fine, since my toe is in a fragile state now, I decided to just go watch a movie. GP506. Must watch this time.
Then went to cinema, NO MORE SHOWING! What? Did it even showed this title? Or just simply no more showing of the movie? I clearly remembered seeing the poster a while ago. Yes, hmm. It WAS JUST A WHILE AGO! A FEW DAYS MAYBE?? It couldn't have been more than a week could it?
ARGHZ!!!! By this time I was throwing a fucking temper and howling like a fucking bitch. I was just looking at small little things to get angry at and maybe to make my toe feel better?
No choice, got tickets for "Transporter 3". Not a bad movie I say.
After movie, went to Giant and searched for GP506. Nothing. Why all DVDs got but only GP506 don't have???!!!! Then suddenly, Da Yi Ma comes and visit me again this month. Bought "Wild Child" DVD (I think I still have a few movie DVDs buy liao never watch), cause I just not happy to go home empty-handed can? Then buy some "bread" for Da Yi Ma to eat, and now, haven't had dinner, sitting here, typing out all my frustrations and whining like a dissatisfied cat.
My off day always like that, make me not happy at all. Haiz~~~~~
Tomorrow still must go to work. No more leave-taking. Next week going back to hometown so already took alot of leave liao.
My nail still hurts, though not as painful now, kinda numb le...
ThAt LaDy @ 8:36 PM
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Used To............
I used to think that I cannot survive on my own, used to think that I need someone by my side every single day, used to think that I am scared of being alone, used to feel paranoid if I am left by myself, used to feel lonely and sad if there's no one there for me....
But today I realised that it's not really scary if you're alone.
And I realised that, hey, being alone makes me feel relaxed. No stress, no worries, though sometimes can feel rather bored, but I like the peace that surrounds me, makes me think straight.
And I realised that I actually like being alone. At least I won't have to keep worrying about something or someone that is not worth it.
And today I also realised that no matter what you do or how hard you put in effort in something, things don't always work out the way you want them to.
I'm tired of giving, and always giving, and worrying for YOU! Shit man, how old are you and how old am I? Why is it that I am always the one having to worry about YOUR problems and having to solve YOUR problems? Why won't you listen to one single thing that I say? Everything that I say, that I do, is all for your own good. Have I ever harmed you? Ever hurt you? NO! Cos the one who love you will NEVER HURT YOU!
ARGHZ!!! I'm so exhausted!
Whatever. Live your life for yourself, never for anybody else. Nobody is more worth it than you yourself. Learn to love yourself more than anyone else. That's my advice to all of you out there.
Back to happier things. I went to a book fair today and bought many many books!!! Awww, to have a hobby of reading is a real expensive hobby lar, cos even though the books are cheaper than normal, still, because of the quantity you buy, it can really add up to a lot of money lor.
Isshhh!!!!!! Can't seem to stop myself from spending lar! I wanna buy so many things lar.
I love this song:
说好的幸福呢
ThAt LaDy @ 3:34 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
What A Week
This week has been especially tiring for me, working for six days in a row!!! Waking up at 4.15am and sleeping at 12am EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!
Tomorrow, yesssss, tomorrow I can finally rest... Though I wanna do some shopping for my important events this month and next month as well, I've decided that all shopping activities can wait till after 3pm tomorrow!
I realised that my temper has gone from bad to worse, especially early in the mornings when I just wake up and during work..
When I just wake up, you just CANNOT keep nagging and nagging at me can?! I know, there may be some important (or not so important) things that you might wanna say (like ask me to drink a cup of plain water first moment I wake up and how it's good for health and yadda yadda), but still, at least give me my first thirty minutes of the day alone to myself can?
I'm not talking about only my mother lah, just anyone who happens to sleep with me for the night, like maybe some friends who sleepover at my house? Or I go sleep at other people's house? I don't know la, I just tend to get very easily agitated when I just wake up.. Though my friends who have slept over at my house are rather ok cos they are not the ones who will keep going non-stop about something lor..
During work time, I do not expect others to keep up with me and follow my pace, cos I can't do that too.. I do things at my own space and time and I just think that everyone's working styles are different and we can't expect everyone to be the same as us..
But if we are going for lunch break, you know that it's already time for lunch, and you want me to eat with you, how can you still dilly-dally and talk with others about non-important things (which can obviously wait) and expect me to stand at a side to wait for you for a whole TEN minutes???!!!!!!!
Don't you KNOW that someone is waiting for you to have lunch with her??? And somemore it's because you yourself said that you want to eat together with her???!!!!!!!! It's so impolite to keep people waiting for you just because you want to laugh and make jokes with your friends!!! Next time if you want to dilly-dally then please go ahead and don't make plans with me ok?! Cause I just DO NOT LIKE to waste my time waiting for others to finish small talk!!!! You wanna dilly-dally with others please make plans with others so that you all can dilly-dally your way all through your lunch time and talk and laugh and maybe leave five minutes for you all to gobble up your food....
Haiya! I'm just so super pissed k? I don't know why I'm like that k? I just don't like to be kept waiting, and I don't like others to wait for me also!!! It's just so simple!!! Why can't it be understood??!!!
You think I'm selfish? No. You are. Cause your inconsiderate actions cost people their time and make people frustrated. Don't say that I have not kept people waiting before, yes, indeed I have. But it's only because of important held-up, not some stupid small talk and jokes lor!!! Geddit?!!! No?? Go bang your head against the wall.
Haiz~~~~ Ok, maybe you can say that I am the impatient type, and I do know that people like me cannot be a teacher, else I might end up flinging children against the wall (i'm just kidding ok?), and I do admit that I am impatient, but I am only impatient towards those that WASTE my time!
I am very caring one ok?! I have been working with SGH for some time now, and when I handle patients, I am very caring and gentle de hor... I don't scold them or get irritated if they cannot walk or stand on their own, instead I take very gentle care of them and their needs and make sure that they are very comfortable when they are with me ok?!
And I really think that this job is very meaningful to me and I am very happy everyday when I am working lor.. You know how much it means to you when you have helped your patients feel comfortable and they say "thank you" to you? You will feel so happy that you wanna cry de lor!
I went for lifting technique training today and I really hope that I can pass and get my cert.. The trainer was so funny that I laughed all the way through class till I also don't know whether I crying or laughing... Haha~~~~~~~~
