I-dunno-what-to-do (first)
Ok, I don't really know what's with the title of this blog entry, but it kinda reflects my feelings la..
December will be very eventful for me, with my mum's brother's wedding (i seriously don't like him), and chalet with my ex-colleagues (i really do love them lots) and Christmas and trips and and.... And hair rebonding (or curl) with MeiFen (I'm like really really happy for her now la!) and lotssss more!!!!!!!!
Woohooo!!! I'm so excited lar!!!!
ThAt LaDy @ 1:05 PM
I'm Still Here
Yes, still here. I didn't leave, not because I don't want to, and not because I lack the courage, but because of unforeseen circumstances.
Well, I guess it's still ok for me, though I was really looking forward to leaving and going to another place and try a change for me.
I really feel my life now is rather mundane, but well, at least it's spent worthwhile lor. Work for money, money to spend, spend finish, work again.
Haha. How's that. Rather bored right?
So that's why I'm not satisfied with it. And that's why I'm working on it. I mean working on not feeling so mundane la. But I shall not disclose details since alot is still not done yet. But can give you all some clues.
1) This project, if successful, will mean doing something that I love,
2) and having alot of free time for myself and at the same time
3) earning a rather comfortable sum of money!!!
MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!
You must be very anxious to know what's my project all about right?
Right??
Right??!!!!!!!
Say YES or I will slap your bloody face and eat your flesh and drink your blood and skin you ALIVE!!!!
*ROAR!!!*
*Slaps self!*
Ehem, ok, back to reality, I need sleep. Like, lots of sleep. You get me? No? Huh?
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....................................................
ThAt LaDy @ 8:02 PM
Wonderful Weekend, Torn Feelings
Just spent a wonderful weekend with my friends, but have not had the mood to blog about it la..
It was nice meeting up with Mei Fen and Li Ching lor, cos it feels like sooo long since we have met..
Now, I know that I have been acting weird or moody, but it's only cause I am so torn la..
Torn between staying or leaving..
How?
I used to be very decisive about everything, and it usually won't take me more than 3 seconds to make a decision about ANYTHING.
But now, why?
Is it cause of phobia? Phobia from leaving before and suffering at a far far away place away from home?
I think so lor.
I am really scared that I will suffer leh, when I am not at home, when I am away from my smelly bed and warm blanket and my dolphin stuff toys and my nagging-but-loving mum..
Haiz~~~
Isn't it so nice just to be at home? Cause we feel so secure and all that?
How? Should I leave or stay?
Any ideas anyone?
Anyway, I promise I will blog EVEN if I decide to leave, that is, before I leave..
So, cross your fingers.
ThAt LaDy @ 6:32 PM
累了，就把心事放下來
我們能很容易的放下有形的重物卻很難放下無形的重擔。
累了，就把心事放下來
最近認識一位美國籍的出家師父，是個很有趣的事情。
特別是他叫我舉起蕃茄汁跟他說話的經驗。
我們約在新竹的一家茶館用英文談論著心經，
師父用英文跟我解釋因果、輪迴這些事情，這都還不稀奇。
有趣的事情在後頭呢！
師父一聽完我跟他提到的個人煩惱的時候，
他索性要我左手提起他剛買的三罐番茄汁，一邊提著，一邊跟他說話。
可想而知，我左手感覺到疲勞的程度，跟時間成了正比。
也懊惱著為何師父要我一邊提著三罐蕃茄汁，一邊跟他說話。
受不了這樣的酸楚，我自行把左手放下，
卻聽到師父跟我說：「 Hold it up, and keep talking to me. 」
聽到這樣的話，心理不免起了疑心，
我手提的那麼酸，為何不讓我放下手上的重物，輕鬆地與他對談？
約莫過了15分鐘，我的左手實在承受不住了，
才聽見師父跟我說：「Now you can put it down.」。
看著我狐疑的臉，師父居然笑了出來。
「你不喜歡提著重物跟我說話，
為何你卻喜歡帶著煩惱來跟我說話，過著你的生活呢？
手酸了，放下就好，對待煩惱，不也是這樣？
或是這些煩惱就像是那些番茄汁一樣，
是你自己用手把它們給舉起來的呢？」
有趣的經驗，對吧？
最近我開始這樣的練習，
一手舉起有重量的東西，一邊想著事情。
手酸了，自然會放下手上的東西，
看看有一天，我會不會也學到，心累了，就把心事給放下來。
我們能很容易的放下有形的重物，
卻很難放下無形的重擔。
執著的人生會讓自己承擔莫需有的重擔。
所以學習放下執著也就在學習人生自在。
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Imma gonna give myself a pat in the back today..
They say that whatever happens, happens for a reason.. I believe that..
They say that whatever road we choose, it is never smooth.. I believe that..
So, I'm happy now, and I think that the difficult path has not end, but with each step I take, I will be stronger..
Though at times even I doubt myself, still I tell myself that if I myself don't believe in myself, who else will?
So, no matter what others think, I will still go ahead and do whatever I think is right for me..
Cos even if it may be wrong, at least I learn something...
Right?
Right.
ThAt LaDy @ 6:56 PM
Sucky MAN
I just knew my friend's r/s ended. Fuck. 5 yrs plus lor!
5 yrs plus lor!!!!GAN NI NA!!!You know how much is 5 yrs in a woman's life? A woman's
ching chun qi is limited lor!
And this fucking guy tell her he got no feelings for her after 5 yrs plus??!!!!!!!
JIAN NAN REN!!!!!I really feel guilty leh, for not being there for my friend when she needs me, all cos I am too busy engrossing in my own life, fretting over the most useless things!
Haiz.. They say
一次不忠，百次不容！！
Never ever ever give any single chance to a guy who cheat on you!!!
That's why I say
什么情情爱爱都是假的，只有亲情是真的！！！
Family and friends are still the ones who will stand by you no matter what...
FAMILY are the ones who will
NEVER betray you....
This kinda guy who cheat, who betray, who hurt, are
NOT worth our
LOVE.
Cos
LOVE is not causing hurt,
LOVE is not owning, but letting the one we
LOVE be happy, even though it can hurt us, even though it means we cannot have what we want.
So to my friend, he don't treasure you. He hurt you. He wanna be with the other 狐狸精 right? Let him go.. After all, they deserve each other since they are 狗男女. You shall be kind and 大方 and magnanimous and 成全 them, ok?
And then one day, suddenly, this idiotic guy got tired the girl liao, then he
SURE will come back to you and say, "oh my, i love you i miss you you are still the one for me i am an idiot i need you i now den realised that
YOU ARE STILL THE ONE I LOVE", and all these kinda shit right, when in actual fact what he wanna say is, "oh i miss your pu**y and i wanna fuck it again", you can then give him a tight slap and say, GO FUCK OFF!!!
And he will be so surprised that oh, you are not as dependent on him as you seemed to be..
Then he will relly relly regret...
That's the best revenge to him...
NEVER EVER soften your heart to these kinda guys..
The most stupid kinda person in this world are those who let the ones who hurt us before,
.
.
..
...
....
.....
hurt us
AGAIN.
See you this saturday my friend...
ThAt LaDy @ 3:05 PM
